Time goes really fast. I just realized that it's already 6:00pm when Eric tapped my window to say goodbye like he always used to. I felt like its a busy day but I accomplished only one transcript. There's too many things to be do yet too little time to be done. I even have to take home some work to be able to meet my deadline or else I'm dead. So tired and I need to go..

Back to sadness...back to blogging..

For the past few months I've been confused, sad  and lonely. With this kind of feelings I need to go back and remember how happy I am before. I'm afraid that sadness will change me. So I thought of opening my blogger again and read what I have wrote 12 years ago...

12 years ago... blogger was my friend and I told him everything that happened to me. As I started reading my old post, I found out that it was the same person I am missing now and blogger witness those moment of sadness and when that person came back to my life, I end blogging. Now that he leaves again... I'm back to my only and trusted friend... Blogger.

A lot of things happened after 12 years. My father died 2 years ago and It was the sadness moment of my life. I still miss my Dadi-yo coz he's not just a typical dad but a friend "ka-tropa". Those days of hardship in finding a job was over after several times of failures and disappointments. I had a stable job now and just recently promoted as Supervisor. My bestfriend  came back and we became closer as before. I fell inlove with him and I thought he is too but just a year ago things changed and our friendship became complicated. And now, I am suffering with this dilemma.

I don't know how will I able to avoid him 'coz the last time I did, it caused only pain to both of us and we promised not to do it again. He wanted to keep our friendship. I want it that way too but I don't feel okay. Though is hard but I wanted to move on without him in my life.